I made it home safely once again after spending a week with Francis the healer in Austin, Texas. A big transition period always takes place after a week of healing. Initially the experience lifts my spirit to new levels and I become more aware of my reason and purpose. I'm also suddenly more aware of the spirits that surround me every day encased within the bodies of human beings. I look around and I no longer see beings of flesh and bone, but rather see spiritual beings each treading a path of life fulfilling their own unique purpose. I feel a sense of compassion for all individuals knowing that there is no room for judgment, remembering that we are all facing our own challenges. In my own life I find renewed enthusiasm to create, explore, and love.

Usually shortly after I arrive home all the healing energy which I received the previous week, begins to shift and arrange itself in my body. Negative energies begin to leave my space, but before they leave it seems I must experience them first. So as I feel the remembrance of love and compassion, I also feel the emotions of anger, resentment and so on. It's rather frustrating to feel so much upliftment only to be followed by less pleasurable feelings.

There is no doubt that through the course of this process I'm undergoing immeasurable growth. I am truly blessed to be going through this experience for it has brought on an incredible opportunity to discover who I am. In my process of trying to recover physically, it has forced me to also recover on all levels. I have discovered such grand attitudes towards perceiving what this life is all about and it's amazing how much I believe in the purpose of life nowadays.

I have discussed lately how I am feeling stuck in life. I'm always wondering what to do and where to go. I discovered one of my problems is that I put too much pressure on myself to figure it all out. Instead of focusing on each day, I put way too much energy on thinking about the future. This past week most of my observations went towards my heart. Instead of resenting the past and fearing the future, I brought myself to the moment and simply allowed my heart to open up.  It is in these moments I feel the greatest opportunity for physical healing to take place.

I do believe that I am a powerful spirit and I do believe that I am capable of creating tremendous things in my life, but I must learn to let go of the need to control all aspects. I always think that I know what exactly it is that I want, but so many times I think what I truly desire evades me. I believe what I truly desire is the highest good for my spirit and I believe the highest good for my spirit will also bring me the greatest joy. By opening up my heart, loving myself for who I am, and loving each moment, I will not only discover joy but I believe suddenly the universe will begin to open up opportunities in my life. Manipulating life does not work but by opening the heart and allowing love and compassion to pervade the senses, suddenly life is harmonious and balanced. Suddenly I will be having experiences that I never even dreamt could occur.

At this point I'm not ready to believe that I can spend every minute of every day feeling joyful and loving. There will be times when I feel down and there will be times when negative emotions are unavoidable. It is in those times that I must learn to not judge but also have compassion for negativity, understanding that life is an experience and I'm not meant to always get it right. Whether I'm feeling happy or sad, I choose love and allow that love to transform me and transform my life.